For My Misses Who Can’t See Past Their Own Expectations:  Find Your Outlet and Shine

For My Misses Who Can’t See Past Their Own Expectations:  Find Your Outlet and Shine

Hey y’all I know it has been a lil’ minute since your girl checked in but I’m a writer, so you know I stay with a good story!  It is always a struggle to balance my ambitions, and this past month or so has been nothing less than hectic. At times it feels like a bit of an overload to be honest. It’s like I have so much to express I don’t know where to start. Without a proper outlet, I am easily overwhelmed by my own thoughts – which brought me here.

Back in June I had to press pause on my modeling in order to get my fourth book done. My original plan was to wrap up the “Fast Life” series on 7/17/17, with the release of “Paradise & Promises: An End to the Fast Life.” After all, July marked my 10-year anniversary as an author, and I am a pretty big fan of symbolism. However, some unexpected news on the family front clouded my mind with too much emotion to touch upon. As much as it killed me to do so, I had to push the book back by a month.

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Needless to say, I felt janky as fuck because I pride myself on being a woman of my word. If I say I’m going to do it, you better believe it will get done. Not to mention, it is my name on that cover which means when things go wrong, I take the fall. But hey, I still accomplished my goal – even if it was a little later than intended. And although it bothered me not to deliver as promised, I take pride in my work.

With that being said, I am super proud of how this last project came out, and feel confident about the series as a whole!  I had been working so hard for so long on this book, sorting out formatting and cover issues down to the last minute, that when it was finally done and the pressure wore off, I was left to process all these mixed emotions. I was so consumed by my characters and their story that once it was over, I didn’t know what to do with myself.

Now, I won’t lie, there is some relief in knowing I am finally DONE. Another part of me is sad, though, because I have to say goodbye to these characters I’ve grown up with, too. Overall, I am most excited to execute new ideas and continue to grow as a writer. As with any book, I am curious how I will be received now and in the future. It’s still too soon to tell.

All I can really say for sure is that I have been going hard all year, and it seems as if my dreams are finally starting to manifest. I can’t quite describe it. But I can feel it. In the few weeks I took a break from blogging, I have seen and heard so much that I want to share with you guys, like my experience working a NASCAR event as a brand ambassador the weekend of the Charlottesville protests, where I witnessed some young white boys walking around in Confederate flags draped like capes. Then there are the amazing 4 days I spent in LA trying to recoup from it all, but I’ll be sure to touch on those adventures in another post. Just know I am back. I am on fire. And I am hungrier than I’ve ever been.

What the Price of Instant Gratification Could Cost You

What the Price of Instant Gratification Could Cost You

I want what I want and I want it now! Sounds familiar right?

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Waiting is hard, especially when we live in a culture that has been re-designed to fulfill our desires at the push of a button. But in the end, what are our wants really worth when we don’t work for them? And is instant gratification really a bad thing?

I don’t remember where I was or what I was doing, but I could sense this need for instant gratification slowly seeping into every aspect of my life, and not just online. Perhaps you have yet to notice, but the evidence of short-term satisfaction is everywhere you look. From the way we shop down to the way we love one another, the beauty of social media is the ability to exchange ideas and opinions with the rest of the world; however, there is no denying the negative ways this tool has shaped our lives as Millennials. And while none of our needs are new, our expectation of what is ‘fast’ is 10x faster than our parents’. Because who has time to wait, when you have a million other things to get done?

More and more retailers are helping us not leave the house by offering same-day delivery. Bits and pieces of the daily news are sprinkled throughout hashtags and timelines as we bullshit through our workday. Quick fun has become more important than learning regardless of age. Practically every beauty product on the shelf claims to offer ‘instant’ results, even though 90% of their labels are nothing but lies. Excuses provide us with material things we don’t have the money to buy. And sadly, some of our closest relationships suffer when Facebook or Twitter is preferred over what could have been a five-second phone call.

Personally, I noticed this habit popping up most notably when dating. I had to check myself when I realized that as soon as I meet a guy I like, I become obsessed. He’s like my new favorite song and I can’t get enough of him. I’m clocking all his moves and interests online. I make an effort to talk to him damn near every day. But the problem with this is that by having these needs fulfilled so soon, actions lose value. I came to realize that I cannot place expectations on foundations that haven’t been built yet, or else my trust would crumble. So instead of day-dreaming about romance and what the future holds, I am allowing the person I am interested in to meet me there. As time goes on, even the smallest gestures will mean SO much more.

So while instant gratification can serve as a great source of motivation, my point is it can also hinder us from what it is we really want, ultimately leaving us unsatisfied. I also think that most of us treat the future like a myth until we wake up the next day, which is why it is so important to practice self-control and accountability before you are faced with long-term consequences. From now on, when I set my goals the first thing I look for is long-term value, without allowing short-term pain to distract me from my success. And while patience might be one virtue I have yet to fully grasp, I can’t let my need for instant gratification cost me something I can’t afford to lose – my future.

#formymisses On The Up and Up: Do You Ever Wish You Could Float Away?

#formymisses On The Up and Up: Do You Ever Wish You Could Float Away?

I am a hustler. And I pride myself on my grind, whether acknowledged or not. My ambition keeps me on the go, and as an author, my mind is always racing just as fast. As a sensitive-ass Pisces, I tend to overthink just about every situation I find myself in whether business or romantic which also doesn’t help. I can admit that in the midst of all this inner-torment, there are times where I have neglected to take care of myself properly, beyond my external appearance.

Ask any author and they will tell you any time they are under deadline their lives practically unravel. I wish I could say I was the exception, but with a release date for my fourth project less than a month away I’m sure you can understand why ya girl is so stressed these days. The day I got a call from fellow-blogger and fashion stylist, Latrice, inviting me out for girl’s night at Inception you know I was down! Her invite came right on time.

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I had seen postings about flotation therapy online, mostly on Instagram, and it definitely peaked my interest; however, the actual experience was even better than I expected! I loved the clean white space and the spa-like feel throughout the building, and I still want one of those fireplace things for my house (lol)! I also found the other services they offered to be interesting, especially the brain training and I look forward to going back and trying everything at least once.

Now I understand the idea of stepping into a small space or an enclosed pod might make some people nervous, but I can assure you, you have nothing to worry about. And if you use your time wisely, you will see how true this can be once your 60-90 minutes is up.

Thousands of pounds of Epsom salts are dissolved to make the water in your tank denser than the Dead Sea so taking a nap on water is surprisingly doable. And to be honest, I’ve never been able to float in a pool or the ocean no matter how hard I tried so to finally be able to float was a special kind of feeling for me. From the moment I laid down, floating was effortless. I didn’t have to fight it. All my muscles were relaxed. At one point I laid there with my hands behind my head and my eyes closed. The water is warm, the air is salty, and a faint light in the corner adds to the calming ambiance. The fact that you’re nude throughout all of this adds an extra element of freedom which is always a plus in my book. I immediately noticed a change in my breathing once I was settled, which became much slower and deeper. Not going to lie though, pressing pause on all my plans, ideas, and desires was kind of hard at first. A few minutes in and I’d finally found my peace and quiet. There were times I even forgot I was in water.

At the end of my hour, I showered off any excess salt under the Vitamin-C infused aromatherapy shower located in my private room which smelled really, really good. I remember joining the rest of my group in the lobby and feeling incredibly refreshed. It is almost like your brain has to adjust after being so relaxed. The best way I can describe the feeling you get afterward is “float brain.” It’s almost like everything feels brand new, including you.

Last Friday was the first time in a long time where I was actually able to give my mind a chance to recharge. The sense of calm I left with lasted for hours, and made sleep that night that much better. I woke up ready to work a Nascar event as Brand Ambassador early the next morning, off 4 hours of sleep, and yet I didn’t feel tired at all.

And while I went home that night feeling calm and relaxed there are so many more benefits to floating. Not only can you deepen your perspective on life, tap into your creativity, and confront those good or bad memories, you can also relieve pain. As your mind enters a deep state of calm, your body cannot help but follow, giving you a chance to reset and realign. There is a list of health benefits for those who suffer from anxiety, depression, insomnia, and high blood pressure just to name a few. The location I visited was called Inception in Farmington Hills, Michigan but you’ll have to check out their website http://inceptionep.com/ for additional services and pricing. And if you don’t live in Michigan, don’t worry there are plenty of health and wellness centers like these springing up all across the country so a quick Google search should steer you in the right direction depending on where you live.

So the next time you are thinking about going to get your hair or your nails done, don’t forget to take care of what matters most – and that is your mental health. Cause as much as I love to walk around with my hair laid or show off my fancy nails, that post-float glow is something that has to be experienced before it can truly be understood.

When Was the Last Time You Had A “Rough Night?”

When Was the Last Time You Had A “Rough Night?”

 

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Hey guys, guess who got exclusive screening passes for Rough Night two days before it’s official release? This girl!

So you know I had to come straight to the blog and share all the juicy details with my misses. And while movie critics rarely know what the hell they are talking about, I am no movie critic. I won’t steer you wrong.

For those of you who haven’t seen the trailer yet and have no idea what I am talking about, just imagine meeting up with your five besties from college (Scarlett Johansson, Jillian Bell, Zoë Kravitz, Ilana Glazer, Kate McKinnon) 10 years later for the littest bachelorette weekend in MI-yayo. Then imagine one of your friends kills a stripper and you have to work together to cover it up or you all could go down for manslaughter. Pretty crazy, eh?

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With already-high ticket prices on the rise, it can be hard to decide which movies are actually worth seeing in theatres, but just for the record, this is not one of those movies where all the funny moments are shown in the previews and now you’re stuck sitting in a dark room wasting more than an hour of your life, wishing for your money back. And while I will admit this scenario might not be funny in real life, it is pretty hilarious to watch it play out on the big screen. I literally laughed from beginning to end. And not those, “oh, that was kind of funny,” little giggles either. I’m talking about leaning over on the person next to you cause y’all are both laughing so hard you can barely keep your eyes open. It was that funny.

I definitely picked up on some Hangover vibes as the storyline progressed, but it was cool to see women as the focus. With plenty of cocaine to share, old swinger neighbors, and a deep “sea of dick,” this movie definitely earned its R rating. Alice and Pip make every scene they’re in that much more outrageous, and Peter, the groom-to-be, had me cracking up. As stressed as I am juggling these writing/modeling projects, Lord knows I needed that laugh. Needless to say, this is probably the only rough night I wouldn’t mind reliving.

So if you are feeling a little stressed out right now (like me) or if you just want to get together with your girls for a fun night out this weekend, Rough Night is a must-see summer movie. If I had to rate it, I’d give it a 4/5.

Peep the trailer below before it comes out tomorrow!

 

Who Do You Think You Are?

Who Do You Think You Are?

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” – Steve Jobs

Alright y’all. I have a confession. I’m at this age where “Who Are You?” is still one of life’s hardest questions for me to answer. Just coming up with the little bit of an “About Me” section for this blog was a struggle, and I barely watered my interests down to a paragraph. So many people brand your twenties as time spent “finding yourself,” so with only two years left I figured it was time to make sense of my past, present, and future. I’ve spent years reflecting on the good, the bad, and the ugly in order to uncover the core traits that make me the sensitive thug I am today lol. And while I was looking for direction, I also knew I needed the courage to follow it. Here’s what I found.

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If I remember correctly, my discovery came about randomly one day while scrolling Facebook (of all places, I know). I came across a link asking me to take a “personality test”, and with time to kill, I figured why not? What could it hurt? And believe it or not, it actually helped. Growing up in a culture dominated by materialism and good looks, it is all the more important that we celebrate our personalities, and to also understand that we are much more than our jobs, titles, or responsibilities to others. We often search for things outside of ourselves because we had yet to realize our own worth and abilities, but unless we know who we are now, we will never become the person we are truly meant to be. It’s actually part of the reason I’ve stayed single so long. Not only did I need to take time to rebuild my career and my self-esteem, I refuse to enter into another relationship until I am sure of who I am and what I want.

So you could only imagine my surprise when I found out that my personality type is classified as ENTJ (extraversion, intuition, thinking, judgment) and that only 2% of the general population think the same way I do. That number is even lower for women at just 1%! After reading through each section detailing my strengths and weaknesses, romantic relationships, friendships, parenthood, career paths, and workplace habits, I gained so much understanding over my life. The accuracy was unbelievable. I mean, it was almost like a psychic typed it.

Not to say I was ever lacking in the personality department because that is certainly not the case. I could identify things I did well or could stand to change for quite a while, but the results from my test helped fill in the “why.” When they pretty much summed up everything I already knew to be true about me in the introduction I knew they were on to something. It was like all of a sudden my whole life made sense. Seriously.

They call me “the commander” and for a reason. I own my strengths like being efficient, charismatic, and inspiring, and have come to learn how this can sometimes overwhelm others. I can also admit that some of my weaknesses are my stubbornness, impatience, and the fact I have a hard time processing mushy emotions, which can sometimes make me come off as cold and ruthless, even to those I love (tried to tell y’all I’m a thug).

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Although I will say the one aspect of my life I questioned the longest up until this point were my friendships. I’ve acquired a lot of “friends” out of circumstance, or better yet, convenience, and would later be left questioning why they never lasted. What the hell was wrong with me? After all I was the common denominator so I had to be doing something wrong. Afterwards I was always left feeling like the disposable friend no one really valued, thus was never afraid to lose. I even went out of my way to befriend new people just because. One of the best decisions I’ve made came at the start of this year when I took the pressure off myself to make friends and put more energy into appreciating those already in my circle. Most importantly, I’ve learned that by surrounding myself with other creatives, I am so much happier. So if you want to discuss some deep shit about goals and the universe then holla at me. But don’t waste my time with gossip and bullshit.

Another big part of my life is my work. I put a lot of pressure on myself to succeed, to the point where other people can see it. Aside from my desire to write full-time, my dissatisfaction from working dead-end jobs also stems from my craving for leadership, responsibility, growth and opportunity. I was pegged as a leader at a young age. My earliest memory of my influence stemmed from my 5th grade teacher Mr. Larson pulling me aside while the rest of the class was at recess, and asking me to set an example for the other students since he felt they would follow me.  I can only hope I’ve done a good job.

Curious about your personality type? All you have to do is go to https://www.16personalities.com, answer the questions and don’t forget to share. And while one test might not have all the answers, it can get you closer to it.

Don’t Forget to Stop and Smell the Cotton Candy

Don’t Forget to Stop and Smell the Cotton Candy

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It’s finally starting to feel like summer. Well, that’s depending on the day if you live in Michigan, but I will say it feels nice to finally shed my coat, and in my case, more than a couple of inches off my hair this past Friday. And although the season change isn’t official until June 21st, Memorial Day marks the start of vacation season for most of us.

Or so we hope.

In my case, I am coming up on my ten-year anniversary as an author in less than 2 months. Not only that, but July just so happens to be the same month I plan to launch my second independent project, “Paradise & Promises: An End to the Fast Life,” so you know that deadline is something serious. The pressure is mounting. I can feel it. And it is so exciting and terrifying all at once.

In the meantime, promo is picking up and more modeling opportunities seem to be rolling in, which I am always grateful for. And even though I’ve always felt a need to deliver, this past weekend made me realize I’ve been so busy fighting this burnt out feeling lately, I haven’t put in much effort into fixing it. Even as I type this I have emails to answer and calls to make. I can tell you now my sleep schedule has been shit and I have the bags to prove it. Every time I looked at my manuscript, my creativity would stall out after just a few words. Despite all the ideas swirling in my head on a daily basis, I hadn’t touched my blog in at least a month. With everything I have to do this summer, I realized I had to check my inner workaholic if I had any chance of enjoying my holiday away from my computer. Because as crazy as it sounds; in order for me to keep being productive, I needed to take a break.

And I am so glad that I did.

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For me, there is just something so nostalgic about summer carnivals so any chance I get I have to go. Growing up poor in Reading, Pennsylvania meant that it was probably one of the most exciting things I’d do all summer. If you know anything about my hometown then it’s easy to understand why I felt that way and if you grew up in a single-parent home then it wouldn’t be hard to understand why that was. Even to this day, my summer almost doesn’t feel complete without at least one visit.

There is just something about the smell of French fries and funnel cakes floating through the air that makes me lick my lips just writing this. Isn’t it funny how you’re surrounded by screams and laughter, yet you tend to tune out because you’re too busy doing the same thing? Back then I was lucky if I won a goldfish, and even luckier if it lived a week, so it’s probably best that all I won this time around was a stuffed emoji face (lol).

When I was little, I was so hyped up on sugar I didn’t realize how high the Ferris wheel was, but I do now (P.S. I don’t do heights y’all). And yes, getting my face painted is still mandatory. I don’t care if I am 28.

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Bosses & Brunch

Bosses & Brunch

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Whether you are half-dead from a hangover, or if you simply woke up feeling fancy and fabulous, I think we can all agree Sundays are practically made for brunching. But if you are rolling out of bed before noon on the weekend then the food better be bomb. I mean, am I right or am I right?

In my never-ending search of good food and good company, I went on my first outing with the Detroit Dining Club this past weekend, and I can definitely say it won’t be my last. If you know me beyond social media, then you know that as skinny as I am, I LOVE food and I have no shame about it. I eat what I want, how much I want, when I feel like it. Diet for who? And for what? Yeah right!

Anyway, another thing I love to do is talk (if you couldn’t tell). I like getting to know new people and finding new ways to network so when I was scrolling Facebook and saw a post that captured damn near everything I loved most about life, you know I was down. I mean, with a name like Gold Cash Gold it’s hard not to be at least a little curious. . .

 

This past Sunday I, along with some of Detroit’s finest entrepreneurs, gathered at this self-described “Hill Country brasserie” to see how they stacked up against the ever-growing competition in the city. One thing I really liked was that GCG is housed in a vintage pawn shop, which only adds to its exclusive, hipster vibe without feeling overcrowded or too loud to hold a decent conversation. A major con for me, was the parking, but once my plate was in front of me I wasn’t even worried about possibly being towed. At Gold Cash Gold, they specialize in New American fare, but even my order of Two Eggs, which came with 2 eggs cooked to my liking, bacon or sausage and crispy potato, was a step up from your typical breakfast spot. My sunny-side-up eggs were cooked perfectly, and I actually had legit pieces of bacon instead of soggy slabs of fat and grease which was greatly appreciated. The potatoes had the perfect balance of flavor and texture. No wonder I ate the whole thing!

However, there was one part of my meal that stole the whole show and that was their Fresh Doughnut! Apparently, the flavor changes by the day, but I was blessed enough to try a Vanilla glaze, with butterscotch filling, and ginger snaps grumbled on top. OMG! After licking off all of the filling that covered my hands when I was done, I came to the conclusion that little fluffy thing was pure crack on a plate. No lie. I would even go so far as to say good food is a lot like good sex. Whenever you get a taste of something that good you still think about it from time to time. And even if you don’t agree, one thing is for sure, at Gold Cash Gold they know how to leave you wanting more.

Feel free to make your own reservations and explore their menu by visiting their website http://www.goldcashgolddetroit.com. If you are in the Detroit area, I hope to see you at our next meet up! Otherwise, I highly encourage any foodies who love to network to seek out something similar in your area or start your own!

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